Day 846: Never Forget.

It’s hard to believe it’s been ten years…

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Day 838: Red Friday, v.5

Today I wanted to share some of my favorite pictures posted by the communications crew on the USS John C. Stennis’s Facebook page.

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Day 837: Hello, September!


This morning I woke up to a view that reminds me that yes, I do in fact live where the Twilight series is set.  Thick fog swirling between tall, dark trees.  Since we got back to Washington on Monday, the weather has been cool.  Not uncomfortably so but just enough to make me eager for fall and all the fun it’s going to bring.  Even though Labor Day weekend hasn’t passed yet, and it’s still (officially and unofficially) summer, I’m ready to move into fall.

I told myself after Tuesday (our second very long but productive day) that I was going to sit back and kick my feet up for a few days, but instead I’m finding myself itching to get things done.  So plans for the rest of the week include:

  1. Unpack and put away all our vacation gear.
  2. Finish and mail my owl composition books for my Splitcoast swap. (Look for pictures this weekend!)
  3. Order and pick up my books for my fall classes.
  4. Rearrange the closet, so I can get to my clothes without bumping into the Hushamok.
  5. Fill my style board with lots of Post-Baby Hot Mama wardrobe inspiration.
  6. Finish my Stampin’ Up! blog plan for October.
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Day 824: Red Friday, v.4

Vacation has been even busier than I anticipated, so I apologize for the missing Red Friday post last week.

Today I learned that the “red” in Red Friday stands for “Remembering Everyone Deployed” in addition to being the color worn in honor of the troops.  Unfortunately I didn’t have anything red to wear on hand, so I wore my Navy tee instead. 🙂  If you’re like me and need a dose of red in your closet for Red Fridays, Cafepress has some sweet tees.


This one isn’t red, but it is a Red Friday tee.

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Day 810: Red Friday, v.3

Over the past few months, I’ve seen several posts of “Things Not to Say to a Military Wife”.  Most of them, if not all, have to do with spouses dealing with deployment.  The responses are mostly sarcastic, some are witty, and a few are really funny.  My favorite is the idea to respond to a comment of, “F*ck the troops.” with a Ring-Girl-esque whisper of “Seven days.”  The list below is the questions I’ve seen most often.  The answers in italics are the ones listed in the original article, which I found here.

1. “Aren’t you afraid that he’ll be killed?”
This one comes in at number one on the “duh” list for every military wife. Of course we’re afraid. We’re terrified. The thought always lingers in the backs of our minds — but thanks, brilliant, you just brought it back to the front. Maybe next you can go ask someone with cancer if they’re scared of dying.

2. “I don’t know how you manage. I don’t think I could do it.”
This is intended to be a compliment, but it’s just a little annoying. Here’s why: It’s not like all of us military wives have been dreaming since childhood of the day we’d get to be anxious single moms who carry cellphones with us to the bathroom and in the shower. We’re not made of some mysterious matter that makes us more capable; we just got asked to take on a challenging job. So, we rose to the challenge and found the strength to make sacrifices.

3. “At least he’s not in Iraq.”
This is the number one most annoying comment for those whose husbands are in Afghanistan. What do they think is happening in Afghanistan? An international game of golf? Guys are fighting and dying over there.

4. “Do you think he’ll get to come home for Christmas / anniversary / birthday / birth of a child / wedding / family reunion, etc.?”
Don’t you watch the news? No! They don’t get to come home for any of these things. Please don’t ask again.

5. “What are you going to do to keep yourself busy while he’s gone?”
Short answer: try to keep my sanity. Maybe there’s a military wife out there who gets bored when her husband leaves, but I have yet to meet her. For the rest of us, those with and without children, we find ourselves having to be two people. That keeps us plenty busy. We do get lonely, but we don’t get bored, and drinking massive amounts of wine always helps keep me busy.

6. “How much longer does he have until he can get out?”
This one is annoying to many of us whether our husbands are deployed or not. Many of our husbands aren’t counting down the days until they “can” get out. Many of them keep signing back up again and again because they actually love what they do or they VOLUNTEER AGAIN and AGAIN to go back to Iraq because there is work that needs to be done.

7. “This deployment shouldn’t be so bad, now that you’re used to it.”
Sure, we do learn coping skills, and it’s true the more deployments you’ve gone through, the easier dealing with it becomes. And we figure out ways to make life go smoother while the guys are gone. But it never gets “easy” and the bullets and bombs don’t skip over our guys just because they’ve been there before. The worry never goes away.

8. “My husband had to go to Europe for business once for three weeks. I totally know what you’re going through.”
This one is similar to number two. Do not equate your husband’s three-week trip to London/Omaha/Tokyo/etc. with a 12–15-month or more deployment to a war zone. Aside from the obvious time difference, nobody shot at your husband or tried to blow him up with an IED (improvised explosive device), your husband could call home pretty much any time he wanted to, he flew comfortably on a commercial plane, slept between crisp white sheets and ate well, paying for everything with an expense account. There is no comparison. We do not feel bonded to you in the slightest because of this comment and, if anything, we probably resent you a bit for it. Comparing a 12-month combat deployment to a business trip is like comparing a Ford Taurus with a Mercedes convertible.

9. “Wow, you must miss him.”
This one also gets another big “duh”. Of course we miss our men. There are some wives who do not, and they’re now divorced.

10. “Where is he exactly? Where is that?”
I don’t expect non-military folks to be able to find Anbar Province on a map, but they should know by now that it’s in Iraq. Likewise, know that Kabul and Kandahar are in Afghanistan. Know that Muqtada al Sadr is the insurgent leader of the Mahdi Army in Iraq and that Sadr City is his home area. Know that Iran is a major threat to our country and that it is located between Afghanistan and Iraq. Our country has been at war in Afghanistan for nine years and at war in Iraq for seven years. These basic facts are not secrets, they’re on the news every night and in the papers every day — and on maps everywhere.

11. “Well, he signed up for it, so it’s his own fault whatever happens over there.”
Yes, he did sign up. Each and every day he protects your right to make stupid, ignorant comments like that. He didn’t sign up and ask to be hit by anything — he signed up to protect his country. Oh, and by the way, he asked me to tell you that “You’re welcome.” He’s still fighting for your freedom.

12. “Don’t you miss sex? I couldn’t do it!”
Hmmm. Seriously … military spouses learn quickly that our relationships must be founded on something greater than sex. We learn to appreciate the important things, like simply hearing their voices, seeing their faces, being able to have dinner together every night. And the hard truth is, most relationships probably couldn’t withstand 12 months of sex deprivation.

13. “Well, in my opinion …”
Stop right there. I didn’t ask for your personal political opinions. Hey, I love a heated political debate, but not in the grocery store, not in Jamba Juice, not at Nordstrom, not in a restaurant when I’m out with my girls trying to forget the war, and CERTAINLY NOT AT WORK. We tell co-workers about deployments so when we have to spend lunch hours running our butts off doing errands and taking care of the house, dog and kids, they have an understanding. We do not tell co-workers and colleagues because we are inviting them to ramble about politics or because we so eagerly want to hear how much they hate the president. Especially while we’re trying to heat up our Lean Cuisine in the crappy office microwave.

Last but not least …

14. “Oh, that’s horrible … I’m so sorry!”
He’s doing his job and he’s tough. Don’t be sorry. Be appreciative and please take a moment out of your comfortable American lives to realize that our military fights the wars abroad so those wars stay abroad and you stay safe.

My problem with these posts is that, yes, some of the questions are ridiculous, (For the record, every wife misses her serviceman when he’s gone, and every wife is afraid he won’t come back.) but to me, unless the person asking is just a busybody, s/he is genuinely interested in your answers.  They’re really just trying to understand.  Now there are always those people who ask just to gossip or for the drama, but they don’t count.  I personally have never been asked questions like the ones on the list, but from my experience, people are just generally curious about military life.

As for the comment of “I don’t know how you do it.”, I take that as the compliment it’s intended to be.  Most days I don’t know how military wives do it either, and I am one.  And someone who equates a deployment to their husband going away for business is just trying to empathize.  I also don’t understand getting upset when someone doesn’t know where whatever place the serviceman happens to be is.  Personally I had no idea Bahrain even existed until J was sent there, and it still takes me a minute to track it down (If you try to find it on Google maps, you have to zoom in…a lot!  Look for Qatar first – although even that requires some zooming first.).  I’m horrible at geography, so that really doesn’t offend me.

There are only two statements that would probably get my back up.

1. How much longer does he have until he can get out?
2. Well, he signed up for it, so it’s his own fault whatever happens over there.

The first is just a personal touchy subject.  We’ve had a lot of long discussions over the past couple years about whether the pros outweigh the cons when it comes to being a Navy family.  Yes, it’s a tough life, and yes, to be blunt, we have to put up with a lot of bullshit.  But the Navy is giving J and our family opportunities we wouldn’t have otherwise.  I never would’ve even considered moving all the way to Washington State if J hadn’t gotten stationed here, and even though I complain about the weather – a LOT, I love it here.  Our children will live more places in the next decade than I’ve lived in my lifetime up to this point.  That can be seen as both a negative and a positive – I choose positive.  J, too, has had the opportunity to travel to amazing places and continues to have the opportunity with this deployment.

We are a part of a unique community that creates bonds like very few can, and we are taken care of in ways that make our lives a lot easier.  J is doing a job he loves enough to want to make a career of it, and if we play our cards right, he could retire permanently at the age of 38.  Separations are extremely difficult, but in the face of deployment, very little else seems like an epic deal.

As for the fact that J signed up for this, yes, he did.  There is no draft, and military service is not mandatory.  Every sailor, soldier, Marine, airmen and member of the Coast Guard chose to put on a uniform, but they don’t make the choice to go to war (at least most of them don’t).  They make the choice in spite of the strong probability of going to war.  They have a sense of honor and duty that calls them to serve despite the potential hardships they may encounter, and I really don’t think that should be looked down on.  I could never do it, and I don’t think the majority of other Americans could either.

Aaaaaand I’m stepping off my soapbox.  Have a good weekend, y’all!

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Day 803: Red Friday, v.2

One of the things I remember most from the pre-deployment brief is speaking with a woman about what she called “the emotional cycle of deployment”.  I think it stuck with me because she mentioned that it may be difficult for anyone outside the military to understand the emotions we’d be going through before, during and after the deployment.

Image courtesy of Naval Base Kitsap

Prior to Deployment: J and I actually had a discussion last week about how anticipating the deployment was in some ways worse than the deployment itself.  The anxiety and sadness builds, it makes you irritable and exhausted from trying to “hold it together”, and you get to a point where you really just wish it would start already, so you can get it over with.  The pre-deployment stage is especially difficult because you’re trying to balance everything that comes with deployment preparation, keeping your emotions in check and find time make enough memories to last you through the next several months of time apart.

Detachment: This is exactly what it sounds like.  According to Hooah 4 Health, “In this stage, service members become more and more psychologically prepared for deployment, focusing on the mission and their unit.”  I think this is true for the spouse, too.  It’s infinitely easier to cope with the idea of going from a life together to life half a world apart when you’re withdrawn than when you’re still emotionally attached.

Emotional Disorganization: I think this is the deployment equivalent of the “depression” stage of grief.  The spouse and the rest of the family struggle to adjust to their new routines, expectations and responsibilities in addition to dealing with the sense of loss and sadness that come with the departure of their service member.

Routine Established: As it says above, this stage takes up most of the deployment.  It’s kind of like the “acceptance” stage of grief.  The spouse and family adjust to having their service member gone, they settle into their new routines and responsibilities, and they go on with their day-to-day.  It is by no means an easy acceptance or stage, but it’s necessary.  I’ve heard many spouses say that they grew a lot during deployments because it allowed them to see that there is so much they’re capable of that they didn’t realize before they were forced to do everything on their own, so it can definitely be a positive experience as tough as it is.

Anticipate Homecoming: This is kind of like the weeks leading up to Christmas when you were a kid.  You’re so excited, and every day seems to drag out.  At the same time it can be an anxious time for both spouses and service members.  Sometimes spouses find it hard to adjust to the idea of not doing things on their own after being independent for so long, and service members anticipate changes and fitting into routines that they’re not used to.

Homecoming: Hooah 4 Health calls this “Return Adjustment and Renegotiation”.  Everyone readjusts to having their service member home and in the service member’s case, to actually being home.  Some service members may have trouble readjusting to “normal” life, sometimes due to PTSD, and children especially might have trouble dealing with the changes that come with having their parent home.

Reintegration: This is the stage of getting back to a “normal” day-to-day and falling back into a routine that includes all the family.  Eventually things settle down, and what seemed like big changes fade into the everyday.  This lasts until the next deployment (Ew!).

I know that was a lot of text and no pretty pictures.  🙂  But for me this seemed like an important thing to post.  Deployments are extremely hard to service members and their spouses and children, but I think it’s also hard for other family and friends because unless you live the day-to-day, it can be difficult to grasp the many changes that come with a deployment, even after the service member is home.  It may be frustrating for outside family and friends to see a spouse acting more anxious than excited about a service member’s impending homecoming or to see a service member or spouse appearing overwhelmed or irritated instead of happy when the service member finally does come home.

Just remember.  The best thing you can do – no matter what stage of the cycle a service member and/or his/her family is in – is be supportive.

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Day 799: Just for Today…

…I let Little J sit way too close to the TV, eat way too many snacks and watch way too many little people shows that drive me crazy.

…I made my bed into Command Central and stayed there most of the day.

…I only did the 110% absolutely necessary laundry.

…I didn’t clean.

Tomorrow it’s back to normal life.  And don’t worry, we did bathe, get dressed and brush our teeth this morning.  🙂

We also toured a three-bedroom unit in Albacore, which is right next to Bonefish where we live now.  Originally J and I thought we would just stick it out here, but the three-bedrooms have two and a half bathrooms, a utility room and a big storage room.  A utility room for the pets and more storage? YES, PLEASE!

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